Memories

Sometimes, I wish I can get into an accident and get all my memories erased. In computer term, it means to 'format' my brain memory. It's getting too cluttered with alot of redundant data. People entering my life, taking up memory, then leave my life as if I have never met them before.

I remember in the post "Tsunami disaster after 1 year", there is a sentence that goes "Let the past be part of the memories that is not to be erased". I feel so contradicting now. Now I want to delete my memories and then live my life from a fresh. This is not what I have planned my life to be. I once had control of my life and I'm very optimistic. Some unforseen incident changed me.

Maybe I can do partial deletion. Delete those bad data memories from my brain, only keep the useful and important ones. Don't ask me what's useful and important.

That's how funny mankind can be. People will befriend you for a while just for the sake of making more friends, then abandon you like a wrongly born child when everything is over.

My feeling now is a mixture of sad and angry. Why on Earth do I have this kind of friends? Can I still call them friends?